Thursday, May 30, 2013

Thankful Thursday

I have a lot to be thankful for today. A big thing to be thankful for today is attending a new bible study with a group from church. As I sat in a room with people that I just met tonight and fellowshiped with them I realized a few things. Everyone has a past and a story to tell and people can overwhelm you with kindness. How hard is it to go over to someone's house that you have never even spoke too and introduce yourself? When you are following God's will it seems the most natural thing to do.

The second thing I'm thankful for today is the time to start reading a new book. Yesterday at the Christian book store I bought a book titled, "Successful Women Think Differently." My career consumes a large part of my life so this seemed like a great book for me to pick up and read. I'm sure I will blog more about it as I get deeper into it.

That's all I have for tonight. I've had a marathon of a week but tomorrow is Friday!

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Unexpected

My "fresh start" officially began on April 5, 2013, but it wasn't until May 10 that I really started praying and let God order my steps. So my fresh start actually began the morning of May 11. I laid all my worries on The Lord and began for the first time in 8 years to really rely on Him instead of myself.

With this fresh start came a name change. A change back to Britni Nicole Williams. I am proud to be a Williams, always have always will be. When I got married I even moved my last name to my middle name. Being a Williams is important to me; it shows were I come from. The little bit I have talked about my parents, it should be clear how proud I am to be their daughter. I know that if I continue to follow God and his timing that someday if he chooses to bless me I will I have this same pride in the man God chooses for me.

I spent the first few weeks after April 5 getting my social security changed, drivers license changed and the required documents sent for work. As I talked about, my real transformation started on May 10. One thing I have done is join a Bible study group at my church, a first for me. (I feel guilty even admitting that since I was raised in a Christian home, but I've just been too "busy" the last 8 years..but those days are behind me.) Joining a Bible study means studying the Bible right?
What does a girl do though when she doesn't have a Bible that is symbolic of a fresh start? So, today after 11 hours of work I drove over to the Christian store rather than heading home.

I searched for a good bit of time for the perfect Bible. I have been in churches my entire life that have only used the KJV, but I just couldn't find the One. The one that felt right in my hands and that made me feel a certain way. (I'm a little crazy about books) I ended up getting a new KJV. I knew that was the one. A pink one.

I ended up picking up a few more books, a daily devotional and a career related book. I checked out and picked the color that I wanted stamped on MY Bible. Aqua. As the gentleman handed me my brand new Bible, a sacred book that I'm sure to spend a lot of time with, tears welled up in my eyes. Never had my name looked so beautiful to me and in that moment I knew, this is my life now. I've been given a second chance to do things the right way.

It wasn't changing it officially on my social security card, it wasn't having rectangular pieces of plastic with my name on them, but it was the Bible, with my name on it that made it official for me.

As I was walking out a lady rolled down her car window and told me I looked fabulous in the dress I was wearing. Icing on the cake and uplifted my spirit.

So today I'm thankful for

1) my name
2) the kindness of strangers

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Something To Be Thankful For

Everyday I pray for various people. One group of people that I pray for in particular are the people I work with. I spend more time with these people than I do at home and they play a critical role everyday in my life.

This morning I had one of my co workers come into my office and tell me about the wonderful weekend she spent with her dad and how he ministered to her. She also told me how she wants to change her heart for God. How awesome is that? We spent a few minutes talking about that and I shared a little bit of my story with her.

I told her that I'm back to blogging. When I said that she challenged me to write two things everyday that I'm thankful for. When you find time to be thankful you find less time to think about the things you don't have.

I'd been praying for her, she had this wonderful story to tell me and then she challenged me to do something. Isn't that awesome how our brothers and sisters in Christ challenge us to be better, to think more, to pray more and to give more?

So today I'm thankful for:

1) brothers and sisters in Christ who pray for me and challenge me
2) God working in my heart over the last three weeks






Monday, May 27, 2013

What Makes a Hero?

Yesterday, the church service was about heroes. And I sat in my seat and the preacher called for all people who serve and have served in the military tears began to form in my eyes. There are hundreds upon thousands of people who have laid down their life for the United States of America and we are blessed to live in this country.

We watched a slide show of definitions of a hero and it hit me that anyone can be a hero. Here are some heroes they came to the forefront of my mind.

My Uncle Ira, my mom's sister's husband. He fought in Patton's army in WWII. He has stories that would knock your socks off and then I'm sure stories he will never share with anyone.

The first responders in the tornados in Granbury and Moore. My mom and I drove through the neighborhood in Granbury where the tornado went through. My parent's chiropractor lived near there and shortly after it passed he and a friend went to give aid. Then the teachers at the school in Moore that put themselves in harms way to protect their students. It's really tragic when things like this happen but it also allows us to see the good in people and just how much people are willing to do for others.

Then there is our ultimate hero, someone who paid the ultimate debt for us - Jesus.

John 15:13 Greater love has no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

Isn't this exactly what Jesus did for us and what we think of when we think of what a hero is?

So on this Memorial Day as we remember our friends and family that served our country and our everyday heroes, lets not forget who our ultimate hero and Savior is.

Wonderful Weekend

This weekend didn't quite start out as I expected it too. I had planned on leaving Friday right after work to head home to visit my mom. However, some unexpected changes happened at work and I ended up staying until 6:30. Some people might think yuck at staying at work on Friday till 6:30 but I genuinely love my job so it wasn't that terrible.

I did head out bright and early Saturday morning. Mom and I had lunch on the square in downtown Granbury and then picked up a bottle of wine for a graduation party Saturday night. Lunch was super yummy: sweet potato soup, quiche, coconut creme pie and coffee.

We met up with my aunt and cousin to head to my cousin's friend's kids' graduation party. Did you get that?

My mom gives me a hard time all the time about being old and boring but that is perfectly fine with me. I was ready to leave about 8:30. I knew we needed a good nights sleep and wanted to make sure we made it to the early service for Church.

The devil tried every which way to keep us from making it to Church but we pushed through and made it (15 minutes late) but we made it. And thank goodness we did. The message was awesome (more on that later).

After church mom and I made it to Blue Mesa for brunch. My most favorite brunch ever. We had 3 rounds of food and 4 mimosas a piece. We needed to walk all that off so naturally we went shopping. I ended up spending a small fortune at J. Crew. Lots of cute clothes for work and clothes for the weekend.

We spent the rest of the evening at my parents looking at the horses and letting the dogs play. Daddy was adamant that I see their newest horse, Bri. She is already shedding her baby hair. We rounded off the evening with pizza and a movie that I only watched for about 30 minutes before falling sound asleep.

All in all a great fun busy weekend. I'm so thankful for the time I got to spend with my mom. I'm lucky to have a mom and best friend all rolled up into one.









Friday, May 24, 2013

Frogs

I found this guy hopping along the road on my way home from town tonight. Parked the car in the garage and searched all over the road for him. Found him. Put the leash on Biscuit and we walked him across the way to the pond.

That's about all I have to say about today.

I worked till 6:30 and didn't get to go to my parents tonight. I'll be headed out bright and early in the morning.


Thursday, May 23, 2013

Praying for Patience

Every morning for the last 13 mornings on my way to work I pray for patience and a kind heart and kind words. Patience has never been my strong suit. I'm the type that wakes up one morning and decides I want a new car so I go buy a new car. I'm the type that sees a house in the newspaper, go tour it and decide that day I want to buy it. I'm just not a patient person. However, I've been focusing on changing and improving and growing closer to God and patience is something I spend a good amount of time praying about. I feel like it is the one thing that has always stood between me and God.

I've been learning about what God says about patience.

Hebrews 12:1 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us

So this morning like any other morning, I prayed. When I got to work it seemed as if everyone was out to hurt my feelings today and tears welled up in my eyes more times than I can count, but I stayed strong and kept focusing on the positive and praying for patience. And I sure did have a lot of awesome things happen to me today. 4 awesome things to be exact. I'll share two now and two later.

I went to the dermatologist today and found out that I have no problems or risks so that was a relief. That was one thing. The second was getting a new phone. I have had an iPhone since the very first one came out in 2007. I always jump and pay outrageous prices to get the most brand Spankin new one. However, when the 5 came out I didn't. I just waited. Today I get a text that says trade your iPhone 4S and get the 5 and I thought surely there must be a catch. So after work I went to check it out. No catches or anything...I backed my phone up, restored the factory settings, handed it over, paid sales tax, bought a car charger and walked out of ATT less $36 and with the 5. Apparently this is a promotion ATT has been running for awhile. Patience pays off.

I then went to get my toes and nails done. I'm headed to see my mom tomorrow and wanted to be in tip top shape. Other than that my evening really hasn't gotten much better but tomorrow is "after all another day" (name that movie).

P.S. having a bad day? Whataburger never disappoints.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Trusting Others

Trusting others - sometimes a difficult concept for me. In school when we had the option of working in a group or on our own I always opted to work on my own especially in college. I didn't want to have to rely on anyone to do their fair share and would rather do it all myself, so all the success or failure I bore on my shoulders. I think back and realize that maybe there would have been times that would have been much less stressful if I would have had enough trust in other people.

Yesterday, as I sat around a table with a group of ladies that I have not even known for year I realized that somehow without really even realizing it I have learned to trust people when they say they are going to do something. We we were at our normal once a month Board Meeting for Young Professionals of San Angelo and we had gone through all of our officer reports and then were talking about general business. As we talked about upcoming mixers one of the ladies said "I'll take care of that." Then we were talking about our book club and one of the other ladies said "I'll take care of that." And so on and so forth. And I must admit (sorry ladies if you're reading this) that my mind drifted a little. When I snapped back I thought, "omgosh I haven't written anything down in like 5 minutes." And then I thought, "wait, there really is no reason too, they have it under control and will do what they say."

I'm a compulsive note taker. I rarely ever go over and read my notes, but I just feel like if I have it written down that I'll remember it and 9 times out of 10 that is true. In the not so distant past, I would write everything down, what every single person committed too because I was so worried they wouldn't get it done (not that me writing it down would help that). But, yesterday sitting at that table with 3 ladies who I have felt like have become friends and 2 new board members I realized that its okay and such a relief to trust other people and have them do what they say.

In the professional world it just isn't feasible to do anything all on your own and you start to value the diversity that working with a group brings. So as I've learned that I trust others I'm reminded how the Bible tells us to trust in The Lord.

Proverbs 3:5 - Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

This one particular verse jumps out at me. Too many times we think that our own understanding or working on our own is the best. But God reminds us to trust in Him with all our hearts. It is such a relief and gives me such a peace like never before to know that I can trust in The Lord with all my heart. And it is a nice feeling to know that I can trust the words and work of others.

Learning to trust others was not something that is always easily done and neither is putting all our trust in The Lord, but I know that if I'm faithful to him he will be faithful to me.

Every day brings a new lesson learned for me and that's a pretty exciting feeling every morning waking up and knowing I will see Gods hand in my daily life.

Sunday, May 19, 2013

A Father's Expectations

As I sit here eating a brownie and drinking some chai tea, I'm reflecting on this weekend and all of God's blessings and how he answers prayers.

Yesterday I had lunch with my daddy and I was reminded that he is the greatest man I know and very few people have gotten the honor to know him like I do. He has the kindest, most giving heart and a strong spirit. I've watched him over the last 25 years love my mom and give her the world, and I'm not talking just material things. He has loved her in the most kindest compassionate way. They have one of those loves you see and you think "can it really be like that." Well let me tell you, it can. I've watched my daddy give of himself to others and no request of help from him has ever seemed to big. My daddy has a lot to be proud of but remains one of the most humble men I know. God sent my daddy to be my daddy and I'm forever grateful that God gave him and my mom to me as parents. Growing up I gave daddy a lot of headaches and heartaches, but one thing I look back on and amazes me so much is his incredible patience. He is slow to anger, forgives and forgets quickly, loves my mom with a tenderness, is tough when need be, he has been a teacher and life coach for me and has a kind heart. I could go on and on about him but this gives some small insight into the man I am lucky enough to call daddy. Daddy has set the bar of expectation pretty high when it comes to men. If God blesses me with being able to be married again, I pray for a man that is all the things that my daddy is.

I've been praying all week for today, praying that God would use my preacher to speak to me and it would be words of encouragement for this new journey I am on in life. And that is exactly what happened. The message this morning couldn't have been more perfect for what I'm going through. Just like my daddy sets high expectations for all other men, our Heavenly Father also sets high expectations for us. We started a new series in Church this morning and it started with Galations.

We went through Galatians 5:13-26 where God tells us

So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law. The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

This is just one of the many places thought the Bible that outlines what we are supposed to fill of life with: love, joy, peace and kindness to name a few. Hearing this message this morning filled my heart with peace and an assuredness that if I continue to follow Gods will for my life he will continue to pave the way.

I'm so thankful that God has given us a guide of how to live and also thankful he sent me an earthly father that has and will continue to be a strong pillar in my life.

As a disclaimer I have an equally awesome mom and she at some point will get a blog that is all about her.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Sweet Saturday

This has been a sweet Saturday for many reasons both figuratively and literally. I was looking forward to this weekend all week. I didn't really have plans but I ended up having something to do all day.

I woke up pretty early this morning for a Saturday, picked up a few things I had scattered here and there and put a roast in the crockpot (first time ever). I grabbed a taquito at Whataburger which isn't the healthiest but so yummy. didn't get around to running or yard work, so that has been put off till tomorrow. I met my daddy for lunch halfway between where he works and San Angelo. We ate at Dairy Queen, the only place to eat in a one horse town. We had great conversation and finished off the meal with a blizzard..I tried to be good so I just had a mini one.

I then went shopping with a friend from work. She wanted to find some maternity clothes. I've learned that there aren't really many options for pregnant ladies. Don't these designers know that women want to look pretty even when they are pregnant? Katie kept saying she looked like a whale, and she most certainly does not look anywhere near whaleish. Her hubby had to go to work so we picked up her son Landon and went to get fro-yo. Thats right, two sweet things in one day.

While I was at Target I picked up the movie Eat. Pray. Love. I've always wanted to see it and it was only $5. So that's what I'll be doing tonight - eating the roast if it comes out okay and watching a movie at home. Pretty crazy evening huh?

I also picked up a resolve carpet cleaner thing. Now, I'm not a proponent of using any sort of store bought harsh cleaners or anything like that, but with two animals in the house sometimes you need something a little stronger. I'm interested to see if it will really work.

So that's how I spent my sweet Saturday.









Thursday, May 16, 2013

Cupcakes and Juice

My lunch blog seemed to help my spirits considerably but by the end of the day I was just ready to get home and lounge on the couch.

However, when I got home I caught a second wind. Normally on Thursday I would run; today 3 miles. I opted not too because I thought I was going to rest. Well, after juicing 4 apples, 4 oranges and 4 pears, baking chicken and rice, baking strawberry cheesecake cupcakes, 4 loads of laundry, 2 loads of dishes and making sure everything in the house was in its proper place, I'm finally sitting down. Maybe I burned as many calories as I would have running???

I'm hoping tomorrow zips by. I have yard work on the agenda for Saturday morning and I can't wait!! It's crazy the older you get, the things you look forward too.

Here's a peak at the cupcakes




What Faith Can Do

Not going to lie, I've been having a pretty down day today. Not for any particular reason that I can think of. I've been running a million miles an hour this week and through tomorrow evening it isn't looking like it is going to slow down any.

In the midst of me feeling pretty sorry for myself (for really no particular reason) a song came on Pandora, "What Faith Can Do" and I'm reminded that no matter what if we have faith in God that he will move the mountains to fulfill our deepest desires. Here is the chorus to that song.

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

So that song definitely got my attention followed by this next song "Walk by Faith." It seems as if God knew what I needed to hear during my lunch hour. 

 Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Help me to win my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do 

And I'm just reminded that for too many years I haven't walked by faith. I'm always diligent to pray for others and their needs, but never myself (sad to say). I'm a little extremely Type A personality and know exactly what I want, right? Well, wrong. 

So, now I'm 6 days into learning to be faithful, and I can already tell that God is moving those mountains and I'm excited to continue to share just how he is doing that. 

My lunch time is over so it's back to work for me and my spirits are lifted!

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Starting Over

Learning to Breathe...I thought for a long time on what I would name my new blog. I've had two blogs previously, both of which I didn't have too much to say or any inspiration to write about. I love to write, so writing a great, awesome blog has been a desire of mine for a couple of years now, but I've never been able to get it together - so now is the time.

To some, "Learning to Breathe," may be a funny name for a blog, as breathing is not something we have to learn to do, but rather something we know instinctively. I choose this name for my blog because too often I move through every day life in a scurry and don't take time to notice the small things, to stop and count my blessings, to stop and take a moment to send up a prayer or to thank God or his blessings in my life.

SO, with that being said I have made a commitment to myself and God that I'm going to start taking time to BREATHE.

I had an interesting weekend this last weekend and did some soul-searching; I'm sure I will share more on this later on.

Here I am starting over as Britni Williams, same career, same house, same pets but this time around I'm going to let God lead my life as it should be. 4 days into this changing of my heart, and let me say it isn't easy. With big changes come big sacrifices.

Welcome to my journey!

(I promise to be a better blogger this time around)