Chances To Use What We Pray For

As I'm growing in my walk with The Lord there are more and more things I pray about. I'm a very impatient person by nature, I speak without thinking most of the time and you can rest assured that if it is on my mind I'm going to say it. This means I don't always say the kindest words and there are a ton of things I've said that would have been better off had I just not said them.

I pray for patience, kind words and a kind heart a lot. I want God to be able to mold me into the type of woman that I know I should be. I'm striving to be a woman of God.

There are some day where the things I mentioned above are easy and then there are days like today. Days that challenge me and ultimately grow me. I try to look at every day as an opportunity to grow, to practice what I pray for. I bit my tongue a lot today, there are times that I wanted to scream or shake someone, and I simply just bit my tongue. What I learned is that the outcome was the same, better even. If I had spoke harsh words, if I had grown impatient, all of that would have been a reflection of me and who I am as a person.

So as I transition in this part of my life my silence may be viewed as passive or not wanting to take action. I view it as doing the right thing, the thing God wants me to do. He wants us all to speak in love. I'm going to fail at this undoubtedly but I also know that I will still continue to grow even when I fail.

Today was a real struggle for me, but I know that tonight I can rest easy knowing that I didn't open my mouth even though I was given several opportunities to do so. I can rest easy knowing that through my behavior and attitude that maybe someone will see that, maybe it will mean something to someone. After all, your faith, your belief in God, your proclamation of him as your Savior all rests in your outward actions. It is so easy to say that we believe in God and He is The Lord of our lives, but the hard part is living in such a way that others can see that.

I pray that I continue to grow in Gods love.

Even though today was a struggle, there is good in every day and today I'm thankful for:

1) opportunities to grow in my walk with God
2) coming home to two precious babies who are excited when I make it home. Nothing beats a wagging tail and the continuous stream of "meows" greeting me when I walk through the door after a hard day