This is a post that I have been contemplating for awhile. I did not know if I should write about it and did not want to offend anyone, but then I thought those that I offend may fall into what I am talking about. My point is not of offend anyone but to share some of my struggles and learning as I grow in my walk with Christ.
I have found over the last almost 3 months that as I have grown closer to The Lord it is easier for me to share my faith with just about anyone who will listen. It seems as if I'm always finding a way to connect everything back to God. I try to do this personally as well as when I'm talking to others. There are words and thoughts coming out of my mouth that are new to me and pretty overwhelming when I think about where I was just 4-6 months ago.
As I begin to think about that, I think, does anyone really believe that my life has changed. Do they really believe what I talk about or do they think it is just an act? Sometimes it is hard to believe that someone can just change so suddenly in what seems to just have happened overnight. I wasn't out doing terrible, horrible bad things, but I do feel like the way I think about things and how I speak to and about people is way different now.
I hope that others can see through my actions and earnest efforts to put God at the center of all my actions and thoughts that my life has really changed. I'm not saying I'm perfect. I'm not saying I always do or think or say the rights. What I'm saying is that everyday I try to live according to how God would have us to be. Everyday I fall short so it is easy to see where other people can fall short as well. I do not judge them for that, I am just really realizing that we are all human and we make mistakes.
However, what I do find hard to deal with now is how flippant people are with their faith. Some seem to have the whole religion thing nailed down. And like we talked in church yesterday religion gets awfully tiring after awhile. I had a conversation several weeks ago with someone that I was sharing my faith with and the response I received was "well I can go to church and praise Jesus and all that but then during the week I can do whatever I want." This absolutely broke my heart. Never before in my life have I been as concerned for others souls as I am now.
I'm also having a hard time with people who say one thing and do another. I've learned that sometimes when people find out your faith, they latch on to that and use that as a way to wiggle into your life. Like the saying goes, be careful with your thoughts and feelings, there are few people who care and the rest are just curious. This doesn't mean that we shouldn't care for, minister to and pray for them, but be careful to the tricks of satan and how he works in others to bring you down. Everyday I encounter someone who will be listening to Christian music and the turn around and curse or do say one thing and then turn around and do another. It is so hard for me to understand.
This absolutely breaks my heart, but as the title of this post goes, sharing my faith is one of my most favorite things to do these days. I'm so grateful for a merciful forgiving God that doesn't keep score. I'm thankful for daily opportunities to share my faith.
Like I said, I'm not perfect and I do make mistakes and I do try my hardest not to judge others, but to love them and pray for them. I hope that others can look at my life and see God.
Today I'm most thankful for
1) a renewed relationship with God
2) daily opportunities to share my faith
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